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I log on and familier places seem like dusty old halls. Most disturbing. When I look in it at sites I am intimate with it is with a third person perspective, feeling rather as if I am walking into something that has already happened or I am a tourist examining an ancient place.

Ok now I am...worried. No, confused. Don't like it a bit.

So I shall go to one of the sources and see why/what/where....why not?

Stay tuned.

Peace

A Message to the Gods

WHY!!? What do you WANT from me!!?

I mean come on. You can't see what this does to me? Haven't I paid enough dues in my fucking life? Damnit I know she is there but my closest spiritual companion is a goddamned ghost for all purposes. You took my best friend away and now my one chance at acceptance and camraderie by those I call peers fucked up because of a letter they weren't even supposed to get!!?

Good thing I'm a strong person because this is about the point where lesser people say fuck it and eat a lethal dose.

Fat lot of god damned good I do you NOW HUH!? Jesus christ what do you want of me? Just how much more do you think I can take?

Huh. That makes twice now. DAMNIT! Now I have to go and change back aaaaaall the shit that reflects that affiliation.

Solitary. Yeah, wow, does that ever take on a new and singularly lonely ring to it. Oh well buck up old man. It's the story of your life.